Breaking Sarnia

Every time I go for a run (which seems to be occurring only in spurts) I always want to keep doing it. I know I make a lot of excuses(to myself) like being too busy or too sore the next day (or the following day), but in reality there is probably lots of ways I could make time, and try to push past the pain.

Why run? Yes, why-after all I should be comfortable enough inside my own body. I guess I’m not. I’m not looking to be some enormous muscle guy just to lose some fat and feel more comfortable with myself, and also to be healthier.

If I want to be healthier I would need better eating habits and a motivation to run. Which requires…self discipline. Which I have almost none of. It’s a day of eating healthy ruined by some asshole walking into the room screaming “WHO WANTS A DONUT!???”

The only times in my life that I have lost a substantial amount of weight and begun to feel more comfortable with myself have included heavy smoking, binge drinking, complete lack of eating altogether, and immense stress. Not to mention college in a program that included physical fitness 2-3 times a week, and walking home from bars. In these times, I never really realized that I was losing any weight, it was just something that reached out and bit me like hey …you do realize you’ve lost thirty pounds right?

BUT. Now that things are calming down in life, I’m happier, less stressed, and school is over, the weight is coming back. Combine that with my complete lack of self discipline and I’ll be on the next episode of “half-ton kid who can’t get out of bed but eats wendy’s for every meal”

                        “Please sir…can I have some more?”

…and obviously I don’t want that.

Its times while I’m running and getting disappointed in my lack of self-discipline, or laying on the couch feeling bloated and fat and unhealthy that I decide it might be a good idea to get some sort of program going. It’s always easier to achieve a goal when you have other people pushing you to achieve it. For example, I recall several times in gym class where my running of the full beep test (if you don’t know what that is click here) could be completely attributed to the fact that we had such an awesome group of people. People you hardly know staring at you cheering you on to make you achieve that final stage, and then screaming and shouting when you finally make it. That’s an incredible feeling, and I’ve always passed that on when other people are doing the same fitness test. 

So anyhow, my point is that couldn’t we make a website or something, some sort of group. A group of people, who share their goals with each other, and talk about their progress. We have this amazing communication tool the internet, so how about we use it for something worthwhile! I’m willing to push you to the stars if you’re willing to push me too. Anything is possible but for some of us, we just need a little motivation to succeed. 

I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and if anyone is interested let me know. It’s just an idea, but if you like it, then lets do it!

-Colin